Written By Vivian Ennis 01/01/02
As the sea rolled back beautifully at the tide I watched in the sand for a sign, any sign that might lead me to traces of what I was searching for in this life. I had looked for it in so many other places along the way never really finding it. I don’t know what made me think that this time things would be different and that I might find what I was looking for. Perhaps it was the beauty of the ocean and the wind cooling my warmed from the sun skin.
But truthfully nothing had changed at this point and things were not getting any better. I worked on myself diligently every day and hoped that it would help me to mend the broken pieces of my shattered heart. I also stayed so busy with my job so I would be so tired I would have no time to think as my head hit the pillow late at night. I thought if I did everything right then I could find what I was looking for. But that was not the case at all. I could not buy my way into my needs at least not the ones I seeked in my heart.
As I sat there staring at the tide rolling in and the seagulls flying above, I started to think that what I was wanting in life must be lost. Maybe it is not here on this planet with me crossed my mind or maybe it was not meant to be for me to find it in this lifetime.
I knew or at least felt like I needed answers. I thought, were the answers in the…