The Affair
A Poem about an affair Written by Vivian Ennis 06/05/2000
This intensity of life
filled with dishonesty and strife
deep emotions that won’t let me go
every day not wanting anyone to know
but not knowing what to do
to really let go of you
To release these emotions that are buried deep inside
you are not the man for me, I have now lost my pride
I used to be someone others could adore
Oh how I wish I could close this door
feeling like I don’t really exist to him
being with him like this, I will never win
Not acting like I should
not ever feeling understood
Doing things with a man I cannot trust
doing it out of need or merely lust
a false fear that no one else could ever take his place
Oh these feelings I wish I could erase
Not feeling this way in so many years
has now brought on so many thoughts and fears
Feeling love with the wrong man
just waiting for another life plan
Empty if I let this go now
hopefully in time I will know how
For now this is all that I have
this confusion has made me so very sad
But even if I end it with him now
it will not be over in my heart somehow
A fictional Poem about an affair Written by Vivian Ennis 06/05/2000