A Poem written by Vivian Ennis 04/28/01
So many things about myself I don't want to see
they are painfully buried deep inside of me
So many fears I’m afraid to admit
I wish could be tossed into a burning pit
Honesty with self has always been really hard
trying to live this life as I go the extra yard
Giving too much to others to make things seem ok
loosing more of myself each and everyday
Walking through life numb in a way
that makes me not have to think of today
Or tomorrow and the troubles it possesses
thinking this avoidance will stop my daily stresses
Avoidance is it really helping me
To truly live my life fully
What have I missed what can be changed
what in my life can be rearranged
Have I ever looked deep inside
past all the pain filled with so much pride
To see my truth inside my heart
So I can fix what has fallen apart
Embracing the pain as I let it go
looking inside me so I will finally know
Knowing where I stand in this life
no longer avoiding pain and strife
Written by Vivian Ennis 04/28/01