A Poem Written by Vivian Ennis 11/02/01
I always seem to turn around
repeating things that do not seem sound
Can I learn and let the lessons stick?
It seems that my mind just plays cruel tricks
Never being able to say no
I need to learn how to though
just giving away my trust
at my own mental cost
One step forward and then ten steps back
only to see there is more that I lack
when will I learn to just say no
to the selfish people that I know
How should things go in my life
I Feel my heart has been cut out by a knife
When will I learn to just let me be free
accepting what is inside of me
Allowing myself to accept
that not everyone has love and respect
I need self love in my life
to grow inside ending this painful strife
Learning that I don’t need to give to everyone I meet
always saying yes I am forming my own self defeat
trying to learn I am lovable even if I don’t give in
what I don’t have inside to share within
Written by Vivian Ennis 11/02/01