Pain
A Poem Written by Vivian Ennis 5/18/2000
Deep intense pain
Tears in the dark stormy rain
Feeling no trust
betrayed by lust
Fear of fear
becoming my peer
Fear from the very start
where do fear and I depart
Deep fears in the dark night
extreme feelings of fright
curling up in my bed
fears of a life that I dread
Wanting to hide
my shame and pride
so no one will see
the truth about me
Hidden away
all of the long lonely day
running from this life
and all of its painful strife
Wanting sometimes someone I can tell
that I’m living in an internal hell
but I am too busy running from me
I somehow can’t even see
Why I am afraid to die
its so hard too even try
Feeling a coward from within
Life is like Running against a very strong wind
There may be a reason why
I am living a lie
because fear to live
makes me afraid to give
Afraid to receive
fear of again being deceived
people cause damage
I have ran out of the bandage
Alone all alone
not free to roam
still not facing my fear
that has become my peer
Written by Vivian Ennis 5/18/2000