A Poem Written by Vivian Ennis 2/26/15
It is over, I will call it a day
what I once thought was real has never been that way
I was blinded again by the darkness not light
then left in the cold with no strength to fight
Repeated again abandonment so true
knowing I will never again be with you
Seeking to forgive to make things right at last
those things that were painful from my past
This time feeling hurt differently
finding another way to set un-forgiveness free
I thought if I could make this relationship right
my pain would be healed from this darkness I fight
But truthfully there is no going back
there is no way to gain what I once had lacked
The harder I try and now what I continue to attract
wears me down so, becoming another self defeated attack
Accepting I was not loved is hard for me to do
in my heart it’s hard for me to see this love was never true
I’m attracting those who do no know how to love, it’s clear to me
but I do not know what to do too set this painful trend free
I need to attract a better man and have this pattern change
If my love life is ever to be healthy it needs to be rearranged
For better is a love that my dreams can conceive
this reality is so much better with someone to believe
Written by Vivian Ennis 2/26/15