A Poem Written by Vivian Ennis 11/22/2001
I feel my heart aching from so many tears I have cried
emotional pain is wrenching as it rips me up inside
My longing for what I had before is tormenting me
I want to go back to a time where my life felt so free
The familiarity of a love that I can no longer touch
with a person I thought I needed so very much
Although I’m aware this is just an illusion
Controlling thoughts inside my mind are still an intrusion
Thoughts overwhelming me in the day and night
wishing my mind would give up this useless fight
Struggling with fear that the love I have to share will now go nowhere
Knowing the only way I will feel better is if I no longer care
So finding myself once again apart from you
knowing the only way this will happen is to my own self be true
You see if I am to survive, I have to go back to where I used to be
To the safe feelings before you came around that let me be alone with me
Written by Vivian Ennis 11/22/2001