I have had a lot of loss in my life. My father died when I was 13 years old and then my mother in 2013… And then I lost a large amount of friends who have passed away already.. I totally understand… Definitely sending you loving energy… In a Society Where people are always trying to make us not feel it can bring on feelings of fear of our feelings… It’s OK to go through the pain, it’s not something that will ever stop when it comes to our parents, but it will get easier to deal with in time. If you go through my poetry you will find some poetry on funerals, a lot of different words on loss, that may be comforting Comforting to your heart..