Thoughts so abound, Heaven nowhere to be found
Crashing thoughts in my mind, feeling tough, feeling kind
Split in the middle with no ease, recognition without, please
Seeing something new in me, holding down not to be free
Fear it comes on ever so strong, it’s always telling me I am wrong
Thoughts that I had once chased, feeling as if I were being erased
Dealing with this once again, solitary silence from within
Pain that cannot be expressed, covering it up with how I dress
Beauty in me hard to see so true, not wanting my pain to rub off on you
A stillness of reality so strong, not feeling as if I do belong
Loss of connection in my mind, wanting you to see me as only kind
Feeling different minds miles apart, needing connections of the heart
Fear again this time so real, wishing this pain was something I did not feel
Written by Vivian Ennis 10/08/01